I have to update, even though I know nobody uses lj anymore. Who knows, maybe somebody will read this.
This year has probably been one of the most influential times of my life. I've dealt with pretty much every obstical one could in a lifetime. Death, divorce, sickness, anger, love, hate, a number of new jobs, new friends, old friends, learning things about people you thought you knew, moving past, well, the past, and many new opportunities. I don't know. Maybe it's because it's the end of the year and I'm reflecting on what I've accomplished, and you know what? I've accomplished a lot.
Christmas was wonderful, by the way. I got more than I wanted. I think the glamour of getting frivilous gifts has kind of passed for me. I think it's because I know how much things cost when they come out of your own pocket now and it makes my stomach knot up when I think about getting things, especially this laptop my mom got me, which was $1700 dollars. I seriously felt so sweaty and hot when I got it because I just felt so... overwhelmed and partly guilty. I didn't ask for it, but it's for school next year. Which was a really good idea, I just hate the idea of my mom spending that kind of money on me for Christmas. I just know our money situation right now so it makes me nervous. Otherwise, I got a lot of really great stuff. I am especially grateful for my gift cards, which I spent immediately online because shopping in stores is just going to be hell for the next month or so. So excited! :)!
Mine and Cody's 2 year anniversary is on the 17th of January :) 20 days to go! We've been through so much together, it just blows me away. And you know what's best about it? I think we're a better couple now than we were a year ago. We understand what each other needs a lot more, what the other is thinking, feeling, wanting. We just get each other. In a really cheesy way, he completes me. That's all there is to it, really. We can sit and have serious conversations then immediately after be goofy together. It's just awesome to be yourself around someone for so long and they aren't completely put off by you. We have our moments, everybody does. But when it comes down to it, we're just there for each other and there isn't anything we can't do together.
Speaking of Cody, last night we had the most amazing night together. He came over after work and we played video games (he played, I watched cuz I suck at racing games) and watched about 4 hours of band of brothers. We went to bed around 4, all cuddled up together in my bed, wrapped in each other's arms just like it should be. I sleep so much better when he's with me. It's weird. Most of the time when I have to share a bed with someone, I can't sleep and I can't stop moving, but when he's with me I'm so relaxed and I feel so safe. Agghhhh I want him here right now! :(! He'll be at his friend Chris' condo next week to spend some time with him, so I need to get my cuddling in while I can. Lol. I'm gunna miss not having these nights when I have to go back to work next week :( Oh well. I have the rest of my life to hog cuddling with him. I can't help it. He's minemineminemine and nobody else's and that's all I ever want :)
My dad's in the hospital. It's a really long story, but to sum it up, he was at this lady's house because he met her in the psych ward and she asked him to come take care of her. Two mentally ill people living together and one being responsible for the other...? What a wonderful idea! Needless to say, he got a hold of some meds and overdosed and passed out at her house, laid there aspirating on his own vomit until the lady noticed, called my uncle instead of 911, called 911 eventually, and he's in the hospital for pneumonia and he's just like, "I have pneumonia :(" not, "I overdosed and aspirated now I have pneumonia." He's acting like it was an unprovoked thing, like you just GET pneumonia. It's not fucking pink eye, it's FLUID IN YOUR LUNGS FROM INHALING YOUR OWN BILE. Ugh, I'm just frusterated with him.
Our house should HOPEFULLY sell sometime soon. We've spent about $3500 dollars fixing it up over the holidays, so hopefully someone will come and want it. Lol.
Wow, I really missed this thing. Maybe I'll start writing in this just for me.
BTW, the p key on my lapto doesnt work very well and it's issing me off. Agh, see? I'm calling Dell tomorrow! Wait, I think I fixed it.
ppppppppppppoooppppooppp. Yep, fixed. :) good ole' pushing it feverishly until it decides to work again.